So after being frustrated I decided to brush up on technique more than learning tunes. So I found a few sites for bow hold, and hand placement. These were more read through directions. I wanted to see if I had an easier time understanding, or learning from reading directions instead of video learning. Turns out that I hate it.
The instructions were very helpful, but I find that I like being told the directions instead of trying to figure out on my own with very little help. I am starting to feel better than last week with my progress. Turns out a little practice does help